sabbath?

okay so i never drink on sundays...not because i'm religious. bc i'm not. but...just cause its a weird day to drink. but today was songfest and i went to the after party...which was the people (not all even, just some) of the dancers...and then randoms like me. fuunnn. i met people and then we played card games like capt. dickhead and fuck the deal.

also i was washing my face tonight and i realized that doing that while i'm drunk feels the same everytime. but i just never remember how it feels while i'm sober...maybe thats why i get drunk ? to remember that unrecognizable feeling bc its just in human nature to seek out what you dont know?

i don't know
i'm drunk, maybe maybe not.
i didn't mean for this to happen. i need a boyfriend, or maybe just my best friend---diana? where are you...

i can't begin to remember what its even like to have her here, but when she gets here its like it goes back to what i was used to everyday, as if nothing even changed.

WHAT THE FUCK??? goingot sleep.

love
B

also, speakinf od blair waldord, i saw a rolling stone with her on the cover with blake lively licking an ice cream cone, and there's like ice cream all up in blair's mouth. UNATTRACTIVE,